Hamlet's curse

To do or not to do? The eternal question and to find it out is not even half way close to easy. I don’t know... There are signs all over not wanting me to go travelling there is just one sign saying maybe you should. What do I do.. I don’t have much money.. everyone I ask no one seems to want to come with me.. and I’m really fed up of doing everything alone...

It began with Goa, then Singapore and Malaysia, then Nepal, Shillong... nothing ever came out of anything.. Goa — Bindu doesn’t seem interested, Singapore & Malaysia — Neither Vivek nor Jyothi could accommodate me .. Both said "parents are there"... left me totally disappointed. Then came along Sajeev with Nepal, but then his roomy said No to girls tagging along and when N&S asked me to go with them to Shillong, I figured the ticket rates were too high for me. In between all this got myself registered on to CouchSurfing, hoping for Brazil.... few responded.. few didn’t.. but that is way too far for me and needs so much planning which I can’t or rather not good at doing it alone.. Tried travellingsisters, but realised a detailed, planned-to-the-T trip wasn’t my cup of hot chocolate either.

In between all this tucked away was Sri Lanka. Rithika said she was interested but then came along the silence...

A sentence I read a few days ago got me thinking — If all you ever did was all you’ll do, then all you’ll ever do is all you ever did. Inspired, I mailed this acquaintance I know in Sri Lanka... and he was more than overjoyed to welcome me over to his country... Karthik said he would even help me plan the itinerary... beginning from the budget... A welcome surprise it was.

Then the questions came along... My parents won’t like it. They will ask a lot of questions. One more reason they will have to fight me out now.

In times like these I wish I had a sounding board or at least I wish God would answer. Someone who thinks I can pull it off? Faith, I lack. Trust, I misplaced.

Somewhere, deep inside, I almost wished he would say No. Because I’m scared of doing it alone. Because I’m really scared of not being able to pull it.

Should I take a chance, a leap of faith in myself.