I'm scared to my very stomach... can't stay here at all and too much of a chicken to quit either... I'm just wasting my life.. I'm not capable of taking my own decisions.. some of what I take ends up at a dead end...
I really don't know what to do.. Why am I quitting.. will i find my own window.. If I quit I have no where to go.. no roof over my head.. I have no one to back me up.. I have to dig really deep to the caverns of my confidence and pull it back right up if I ever have to stand on my feet.. because no one is ever going to come for me or support me when i really need.. I'm this driftwood.. drifting all the time.. like this moss that gathers no moss...
But i want to.. some nice moss.. but I guess this is not the place for it.. I wish I had someone whose hand i could hold.. I'm not even talking of a boyfriend here.. just a really nice friend would be enough...
But that's also so hard to come by that I hate myself.. naah!! not so much either..
But Yes.. I'm stiff horrified and i need all the help the universe can offer me....
